Episode 10

AAA I'm tiered of theses stupid profiles: "expert in back rub", they ALL say that! Damn, be more original guys, like a finger rub for instance?! I dunno.. OUUU not in a good mood today lolA? 

Well it's so grey, rainy and gloomy for a Monday that I just want to bury myself under my quilt. Brrrr

Okay Updates!!

Mista' Saturday:

Wrote him an email that went like this:

Mista' Saaaaaturday!

You must be in London...

What on Earth happened? Is it the brother thing? Did I do something? You disappeared?! I don't get it. 

We've been in touch for what? 5/6 weeks? I see you once and then little by little you vanish?

Just talk to me hon' . I don't bite, at least, I try not too...

I understand that you're busy, but for your own sake, a personal life is important for your own mental health, I believe... You need to take a break btw work, writing and your shrink and... spider bites ;-) but I am not your mama or shrink or you, not my place to tell you how to live your life, just telling ya what I think.

You are an interesting character and I like how you question yourself, at least I think you do... and I am curious to know, what the hell is going on up there in his head?! I just wanted to know you better and it does not have to be boyfriend /girlfriend thing. 

We did meet in an awkward situation, the brother, then my friends... Was not ideal, for a first date :-/

I just wanted a fresh start  with better eyes cause I like talking with you! I am just curious about you, that's all Mista'.

So let me know what's going on, I hate being in a clueless situation and I really don't like the word "soon" ha! (it means nothing)

Bon Voyage Monsieur.

Shit, Igor the fly is back... (that was a private joke we had)

xo

Rachel

And ..... NOTHING! So far..

Honestly, I think he is a coward and won't go forward. Do I want a coward? noooooo ;) 

and I feel good about myself, I don't have that knot of "waiting and waiting" for the answer.

The Green Eyed Boy: :D
No! of course I was not patient enough to wait for him to contact me!!! So, I sent him a text Saturday with a pix of a sticker of the Batman logo on a window (his costume for Halloween) saying: "I thought I saw you somewhere in the 'hood" and he answered right away! Yeah! Bouyakasha!!

He said: "ha! How was your halloween?" and I send him a pix of me in my costume" (you can see my nipples through my white T-shirt ;)), "It was FUN etc.. " and he answered back: "him too, he was upstate partied so hard that when it was sat night he did not even need a costume he had become batman haha and that he was now cleansing." and I did not answer. I am keeping that last text!! 

Is it all about who has the power? who is in control? 

Maybe I'll text him Tuesday: "So let's hang, Friday?" Just put it out there, I don't want no "soon" word again. HATE that word!!!

But do I really want to see him again? Or should I just keep that moment and not spoil it? I feel like it'll be awkward, the best would be a concert: together but surrounded with "noise", so not have to deal with the intimacy thing, at least, just yet... Dinner would be too formal. We already had sex, so the "1st date dinner thing" would not feel right (kinda like going backwards) and he does not want to date anyways, he does not want a relationship!! So tell me again lolA, why are you pursuing this? AH yes, his green eyes in mine while I had 2 orgasms in a row, thanks to his amazing ****. Don't be confused girl! Careful... You know now that good sex does not always mean that feelings are involved! You've learned your lesson more than once, so protect yourself from that gorgeous **** :D

My Friday night with "Vajazzling":

Meeting at Union Hall at 8Pm and then going to a concert where his friend is playing.

I text my friend Chacha who lives in the neighborhood and ask her if by any chance she's around, if my date is really boring, to save me. and guess what? She's already there with some friends haha well, another situation where friends are around!

So I see this guy out the window arriving on his bike, at least he does not look short, hat and glasses, wonder what he looks like with both off.. So I go and sit at the bar and let Chacha spy at us ;)

ok. time for me to get up.

Will continue later

ciaociao