Episode 14

Sorry, Geez, been busy lookin' for a job, going coucou here! My brain needs to work!! I can feel those electrons in my brain, bouncing back, going tzzz tzzz and having nowhere to go! 
But I scored 2 interviews. Cross your fingers.
The lady was telling me that, the 1st hour after she posted the add, she got more than 100 emails!! YYYYeeeeaah, it's tuff out there right now.


Anyways, back to crunchy details, miaou.


Really weird vibe I got from my super last Friday... I call him up, cause my sink is clogged up and now it's leaking cause lolA tried to fix it, duh! So he comes up, takes a look at it; I bring him to the bedroom, nooo not in that way. Geez people! What are you thinking?! That I'm some kinda slut! hahaha. It's just that there's a huge stain on my ceiling: neighbors heater probably leaking.. Ok. And on his way out, out of nowhere he says: "can I have a kiss?" WTF? IUUU Shit, No, what, why, hun? I've always been friendly and funny but helloooo IUUU NOOOOOOO
1: you are my super
2: you are fat and depressed
3: you sleep with your dog
So, I don't say anything and just give him a "Thank you hug" but there was that weird moment, when you say hello or goodbye and you give a peck on the cheek but you are not sure which cheek to go for, so you end up face to face? Well that happened. OH GOD! Just give him the hug lolA!! and I shut the door loudly behind him. IUUU just thinking of that moment still gives me the creeps. I've been so cold with him lately which from me is still friendly...


Later that day... lolA is getting ready for her date with "the bearded man"!! and for some reason, I get this feeling that the full monty is gonna be around, if you see what I mean, hehe ;) and I start cleaning my place, it needed it anyways.. I shave, cream. humm which underwear? good these socks have no holes. Not too much perfume and a touch of gloss and off I go!
Meeting at one of my local bars, it's my "okcupid bar" the regulars are gonna start thinking I'm a slut seeing me with a new guy every weekend. haha whatever, they can think what they want, it'll keep them busy! and don't think I sleep with all of them each time! 


I can see him in the distance, he's waiting outside the bar.
Oh God! hair in a pony tale; you call that a trimmed beard?! Oh No, the worst: white socks with leather shoes! UGH you must be kidding me, some kind of polar sweatshirt? Well, that's a good start! We go in, find some stools and he orders us 2 beers. I mean, he would look cute if he had a makeover, that's what I should do, a show for a makeover but for MEN, (probably already exists). 1 beer, 2 beers, 3 beers... good conversation, interesting, fun, no awkward silent moments. He works as an IT and is a musician as well, another one who also loves karaoke, but did not seem as obsessed as Elvis... He showed me a pix of the internet, it's crazy!! walls and walls and walls of wires for kilometers!! 
Beer #4 and off we go! He walks me home and in my head, I was just gonna say goodbye at the step of my door, but who is in front of the building with his dog? My super. God Lord, Oh NO, iuu. So I'm like, ok well, I think you are going to have to come up so my super gets the big picture! 
SO I make some tea, bring out some cookies and we are sitting on the couch next to each other, just like if there were a pillow in the middle. I mean, he is cute... I wouldn't mind having a little interaction here! For some reason, he keeps on telling me how sweet I am, how innocent my smile is. (duh, I do that on purpose idioto! haha. guys love that, makes them feel more like a man). That I did not say anything mean all evening! hun? What? Why would I say something mean? Is that his way of getting me in the sheets?! I don't get it. Well, I did tell him that he would need a makeover. And he tells me that he can't wait for X-mas to get some clothes from his mom: just like his polar sweater! Okaaaay, well, I get it now. Another mommy's little boy! 


An hour goes by and he still did not make a move. In the past, I would be the one, making the first move. Cause they don't do shit! What is wrong with these guys? Where are those balls? Fear of rejection? Well, If you can't handle that, then I don't want you. So this time, I decided to just wait and wait (geez, either leave or kiss me, cause I'm getting tiered here) and... Here it goes: "Ok, I guess I should go now" - "ok" and we both stand up and... The hug goodbye becomes a kiss and he just throws me on the couch. OUlala. Well, guess you really wanted to kiss me, hun! Oh no, what the? Is that the hair of your mustache inside my nostril?! iuuu. Oh God, ok, let's turn heads, haha. So we're makin' out all dressed up. Getting really steamy and tingly... I'm thinking, so now what? Either he leaves now or he sleeps over, well more likely or we fuck. I know now, I do not want to see him again. So why not a little flesh and an orgasm... That won't hurt! If I would of felt like a potential future,  I would of said NO. 


So we take a break and have a smoke. Me: "So what do we do now?" In my head: Do you want to wake up next to him or alone? Him: "Well, I wouldn't mind sleeping next to you..." (of course, you wouldn't, ha!). We are now in the bedroom and start getting undressed. What the F*** is that? No way! He is wearing long johns under his pants! How sexier can you be? oh God! It's not even that cold outside!! 
Both stripped naked we start getting back into action. Rubber time! He did try without, but I was like "nono honey! That ain't gonna happen!" - "It's just I would like to feel you a little without.." pfff yeah so then what's the point! 
All, I have are the NYC rubbers and they really suck! Hardly any lub, plus the not rubber thing kinda turned me off. I'm not really feeling it anymore and I am tiered now and I wish I would of told him to go home. I knew it! I knew I did not want him here! lolA never listens to her gut feeling, the temptation was too strong. She is weak and only listens to the memories of that deep inner feeling/sensation (sigh) ahh LUST!!


We both feel this is not going anywhere so we naturally stop.
We're both lying in bed and he tells me: "I have blue balls" - (What? hun? Never herd that one before?) "yeah, I really need to come." That's what I thought...
Blue Balls (googled it the next day): the condition of temporary fluid congestion in the testicles and prostate region caused by prolonged sexual arousal in the human male. 
Well, hon, we don't have a term like that for us women, but me too!! - "Could you go down on me babe" "please" - oooOhono, really? and you said "babe"?! Haha, he probably was repeating that in his head before he said it: what do I say? How to ask her in a nice way, I'll just use the word "babe" and that's it? you could be more like: "Let me go down on you first" (I'll show you mine, if you show me yours ;) or a 69). I dunno? but don't be so God Damn selfish! Sex is about giving! At least in my book! But you know what hon'? I really don't feel like giving you shit right now, I'm kinda tiered and I just want to sleep! and I tell him so. But if he wants to masturbate cause his balls are hurting, that's fine with me! (but inside myself, I'd rather he wouldn't and do that at his place). 


And every single time I am about to snooze off and fall asleep he turns around. He just can't stop tossing and turning, aaargh telling me that my mattress is too soft, etc... tuff shit dude, I love my bed! 
"Maybe you should go home, none of us are going to fall asleep here." - "yeah maybe, I don't know, do you mind if I smoke?" - "Sure, go ahead." Maybe??? NO, you Have to go, I really do NOT want to wake up next to you. FUCK! and I go have a smoke with him, and I'm like: "Ok, I'm calling you a cab." and that's it! so he gets dressed and keeps on giving me these small kisses. No really stop that, please. At this point, I'm really annoyed and a bit grossed out. LEAVE!! "Your cab is waiting, you should go."
Oh God! Relief sigh, alone. It is now 5AM, I go back to bed and argh, I feel a bit iuuu, I don't know how to say it: dirty? That's a bit harsh. Yes, that's it: I can still feel him, his energy. So I get up take a shower change my sheets! It is now 5.30 and I am wide awake! Just perfect! pff


Great! Well that was a date that finished well! 
and who wakes me up in the morning, well more around noon? 
My super and his dog, barking in the back of my building, which I usually never hear cause they are hardly ever there! of course...


Really lolA, please listen to yourself next time, okay? 
you know this and you keep on doing it again, listen to your gut feeling. 
Lust is one of the seven sins and you are an angel, so STOP. 
"You promise lolA?" - "I promise" - "What? I can't hear you" - "I said, I promise" - "What? Say that again" - "YES! I Fuckin' promise! Okay, happy now? Stop making me feel guilty for God's sake!"
The dual never ends: Evil verses Good.